to live forever?
WeatherVisions | Fractal Knockers-
Note Jean's long-necker bird of cleavage in the stardust above my StellarVision Eyes. Jean seems to appear above as Andromeda smiling as Perseus-Pleiades-Aries, and also as Corvus on the cross over Orion's passage and again as the Nurse of Jove in the Eye of Aquila in my personal reading of the of celestial sphere mythology. The Orion Nebula forms a mind-mirror "Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee" scene as my vision pierces the stars and spirits converge to make away with my soul. My factor-of-4 in unified field theory seems to be echoed in a 4-star diamond pointing at her lean cheek. She often wore a zircon or diamond ring larger than one I could easily afford. When I met her, I was on a tuna and grapefruit diet that gave me lean cheeks too, but by the time I had to escape back to Kansas after losing my job and my car, my face was getting soft and dog-cheeked again from eating an ice cream cone or two each week. Two years later I came back to the Tampa Bay area after leaving Telos Federal Systems in Oklahoma, hoping to see her again, a bit like King Kong searching for Faye Ray in New York, or like Beowulf, perhaps. Jean and I wrote across the thousands of miles that separated us before I came back to Tampa (a Faye Ray effect), but I lingered too long at Telos, where one of her letters finally turned out as a pink slip, after which her communications ceased. After I reached Tampa, I phoned in, but she was attached to another fellow, so I pursued other women, too, as drawn in the nebular stardust around Chamaeleon. (See the Chamaeleon nebular scene in a photo by David Malin in Observing the Constellations by John Sanford, with star charts by Wil Tirion.) Eventually, I fell for my attempt to rejoin Jean, after I lost my car due to local licensing problems. Like King Kong, I hit the bottom hard.
(Also, I recently happened to be studying Anderson's Introduction to Flight when I saw the most recent incarnation of King Kong, so that I have been grappling with the problem of flying as an engineering problem, including hypersonic re-entry from the moon.)
If You Could Read my Mind by Gordon Lightfoot.
Also see Visionary.
22: The LORD possessed me in the beginning of his way, before his works of old. |
23: I was set up from everlasting, from the beginning, or ever the earth was.
24: When there were no depths, I was brought forth; when there were no fountains abounding with water.
25: Before the mountains were settled, before the hills was I brought forth:
26: While as yet he had not made the earth, nor the fields, nor the highest part of the dust of the world.
27: When he prepared the heavens, I was there: when he set a compass upon the face of the depth:
28: When he established the clouds above: when he strengthened the fountains of the deep:
29: When he gave to the sea his decree, that the waters should not pass his commandment:
when he appointed the foundations of the earth:
30: Then I was by him, as one brought up with him: and I was daily his delight, rejoicing always before him;
31: Rejoicing in the habitable part of his earth; and my delights were with the sons of men.
"The Lord takes all whom he strikes and loves,
He bears them far from the Earth
their hearts aflame, their brains made ice,
Earth sends her laughter up to them and, compassionate,
the sun strews diamond dust upon their lonely way."
- Ady, translated by Edward Teller.